Monday, June 14, 2004

The past weekend turned out to be the darkest hours of my life. I was torn between family and her. For that I think I blew my chances with her.....I blame it to my inability to time and plan out well. Went to KL to send my baby sis back to her college. She'll be finishing her Diploma next year. The UPper part of it, I drove to KL and back. Without even feeling tired because at that point of time, my head was in the wishy washy mode. Sunday was filled with anticipation coz i could finally call her up.

Reached home on the sunday at 1130. Had a full hour or i think more talking to her. Was feeling rather devastated then. How could I have hurt her and hurt myself in return. I'm LOST...fucken LOST and confused.FUCK i think i'm just fucked. Could not be with her in her time of need. For that I am sorry.

I'm messed up.......VERY MESSED UP. Half of me is gone, I don't think I can take it anymore.....my old ME is catching up ( the aloof Riza, i mean). FUCK!


|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 12:47 AM|

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